First of all, thanks for everyone's encouragement and comments and help or suggestions.
I appriciate it. I am feeling so much better, even without sleep.
So, the reason I am laughing is that Michael played the best joke on me last night. I got in the shower and asked Michael to get the garments out of the dryer. I was looking through the basket and frustrated because I couldn't find bottoms. I said "I HATE looking for garments in a basket full of whites!!". I look over and he is laughing so hard that he is shaking under the pillow and it hit me.. he took ALL the bottoms out of the basket.. hahahaha It just struck me as so funny I am still laughing at it today.
I had to share just in case any of you are looking for a good April's fool joke.. it is in just two days! I wish I had a good one to play this year, but I am all out of ideas, and too tired to even try anyway! So if you have any please share. I should go sew all of Michaels pant legs shut.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Not puttin on a show...
So I was talking to one of my friends at church and telling her what a hard time I was having being a mother. I think my exact wording was "I am not cut out for this mother thang.. but I think it is too late to back out now!" (Putting my humorous spin on it) and she laughed and said "why don't you post about this? I think I am the only one with these feelings or problems. I said I would post it... but then I thought about it for a while and thought, "If I post how I feel someone will either a.) put me in a mental institution b.) call child services c.) both and d.) at the very least think I was the most ungrateful mother in the world.
You see, if i post something negative you are only getting the negative... you don't get the real feeling behind it, all the feelings that are behind it and the changes of emotion. And if I don't post for a while you will think I done gone off and slit my wrist. So, after much debate I decided to post anyway. I remember Adhis posting a real post about this same thing last summer and I really appreciated it.
Anyway, I am having a HARD time with this whole baby thing. He is five months now, and I know it gets hard for me around the fourth month, even tried to prepare myself for it by workign out daily and eating right and "warning" friends about it so they can "rescue" me. But it happened none the less. I haven't hit rock bottom, slit my wrist yet, and hope I don't, but I have hit the "I am going to run away and change my name" place. I say on a weekly basis that I am going to get a job and put the kids in day care b/c the crazy one SHOULD NOT be home raising children. And, my poor Carma is the one getting the brunt of it.. bless her cute little heart. She is getting on my nerves SO bad and it isn't even her fault and makes me hate myself even more.. (not the nicest to Judson either, but at least he is at school most of the day.)
See you are probably feeling sorry for me, well STOP THAT. I am fine.. thanks to the Zoloft I decided to take after much prayer and concideration. You probably think I am near a cliff ready to jump, not true either. The heartache is so deep, yet so is the joy. The feelings just vary from hour to hour, I think that is called bipolar.. haha, it really isn't that bad and I feel better than I was last week.
So, MUCH of my wo's are coming from trying to sleep train Wyatt for over three weeks only to have him STILL waking up at least 3 times a night for up to 3 hours at a time.. ARE YOU KIDDING.. he is a supernatural! I am sure if you are a close "phone friend" or neighbor you want to slap me and tell me to SHUT UP ABOUT IT, it is all I talk about. But it is consuming me... I JUST WANT SOME FREAKIN SLEEP!!! I have finally decided to TRY to just chill out about it and realize that he is just going to take longer than most babies... hopefully not too long. I am giving it another month and then he is back in my bed.. I can't do it anymore.
Speaking of sleep, time to go to bed.. I dread it, I really do. He better be glad he is THE CUTEST!!! Seriously, check out these pictures of him eating...
When I am looking at pictures and/or videos of my kids I think "how can I EVER yell at them? HOW?" Look at how cute and funny Judson is.. he went and stuffed his shirt with toilet paper and came out looking like this: (btw, I told him I had to use that toilet paper, what does he think it grows on trees? yuk yuk) I was crackin up when he "kissed" it. I said "how did you know to do that.. that is funny. He said "I just made it up". CUTE kid!
Carma's 4th Birthday
She is such a cutie. We had a little tea party for her. We invited some friends and cousins. She loved it. I wish we would have gotten the reactions of all the kids as I went around and said "would you like some tea" (in an English accent of course). They thought it was funny as I was doing it to the other kids but got all shy when I did it to them. And then Carma was last and she was SO excited. It was way too cute, and SO Carma.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Our goings ons....
OK, so I haven't written in FOREVER. I swear the time just flies by so fast, I don't know where it goes. WYATT!! He better be glad he is so stinking cute.
What have we bee n up to? hmmm
Shelly, my bff since from Jr. High visited from Texas, only to stay a day and a half b/c my kids got so sick. She has a 4 month old and we were worried he would get RSV from my kids. Thank goodness it turned out to just be a milder virus, it is better to be safe than sorry. Wyatt had his first (and hopefully last) ear infection. You know I am freaking out since Carma has had a million even with tubes. (Although she hasn't had one since she got her adenoids and T-tubes put in. knock on wood--- hurray!) Anyway, Shelly and I had fun during the short visit. It is amazing how we can just pick up where we left off. And I love the even though we have very different views, both religiously and politically, we still can love and accept each other for who we are and what we believe.

We have been working on Judon's cub scouts stuff. I am surprised at how much I am enjoying the activities. We have put it off for months now and haven't done much of anything, so we have a lot to catch up on. For one of his activities he had to help me do a menu plan and cook dinner, set the table and then clean dishes. I LOVE this book. hahaha He decided to make "Sticky chicken" (sweet and sour chicken). He realized how hard it was to make and how messy it was and how long it took to cook AND how gross it was to touch raw chicken. He wouldn't touch the chicken. He hasn't asked for me to make this since... I LOVE this book... did I say this already? hahaha Another fun activity he did with Michael was make a bird house. It turned out pretty cute, I need to get a picture.

Carma has been extra funny these days. Here are some things she said:
I told Carma I was going to the gym to run around the track. When I came home she asked if I had fun running on the track and if I caught the train. I was confused, I didn't realize at first that she thought I was running on a train track. hahahaha Kids are funny, but Carma is especially funny.
I asked her if she was poopy (and she was) and she said "NOPE", (like she always does when she is poopy) and then I said in a silly voice "I SINK YOU ARE!" (because she sometimes uses the S sound instead of Th) and she said "Oh Mom, don't be ridiculous!".
She is always saying "That is hilarious!".
Wyatt is growing, more length now than out. He got weighed last week and he was still 16.09. He has his 4 month apt on Friday. He is learning how to use his hands and is more coordinated, it is SO cute to watch him learn and grow. He is a very talkative baby, it cracks me up. We got a Bumbo chair and he seems to love it, he looks like such a big boy in it.
I am working on trying to get him to sleep better. He is still waking every two hours to nurse. He nurses EVERY two hours. Today I am having his go three hours, I want to work up to four since I read that babies his age and weight should be able to go that long. And hopefully this will help him sleep longer periods of time. I am going to ask the doctor about giving him rice cereal when he is 5 months. I am VERY tempted to start now if it will help him sleep better.. any suggestions anyone?

What have we bee n up to? hmmm
Shelly, my bff since from Jr. High visited from Texas, only to stay a day and a half b/c my kids got so sick. She has a 4 month old and we were worried he would get RSV from my kids. Thank goodness it turned out to just be a milder virus, it is better to be safe than sorry. Wyatt had his first (and hopefully last) ear infection. You know I am freaking out since Carma has had a million even with tubes. (Although she hasn't had one since she got her adenoids and T-tubes put in. knock on wood--- hurray!) Anyway, Shelly and I had fun during the short visit. It is amazing how we can just pick up where we left off. And I love the even though we have very different views, both religiously and politically, we still can love and accept each other for who we are and what we believe.
We have been working on Judon's cub scouts stuff. I am surprised at how much I am enjoying the activities. We have put it off for months now and haven't done much of anything, so we have a lot to catch up on. For one of his activities he had to help me do a menu plan and cook dinner, set the table and then clean dishes. I LOVE this book. hahaha He decided to make "Sticky chicken" (sweet and sour chicken). He realized how hard it was to make and how messy it was and how long it took to cook AND how gross it was to touch raw chicken. He wouldn't touch the chicken. He hasn't asked for me to make this since... I LOVE this book... did I say this already? hahaha Another fun activity he did with Michael was make a bird house. It turned out pretty cute, I need to get a picture.
Carma has been extra funny these days. Here are some things she said:
I told Carma I was going to the gym to run around the track. When I came home she asked if I had fun running on the track and if I caught the train. I was confused, I didn't realize at first that she thought I was running on a train track. hahahaha Kids are funny, but Carma is especially funny.
I asked her if she was poopy (and she was) and she said "NOPE", (like she always does when she is poopy) and then I said in a silly voice "I SINK YOU ARE!" (because she sometimes uses the S sound instead of Th) and she said "Oh Mom, don't be ridiculous!".
She is always saying "That is hilarious!".
Wyatt is growing, more length now than out. He got weighed last week and he was still 16.09. He has his 4 month apt on Friday. He is learning how to use his hands and is more coordinated, it is SO cute to watch him learn and grow. He is a very talkative baby, it cracks me up. We got a Bumbo chair and he seems to love it, he looks like such a big boy in it.
I am working on trying to get him to sleep better. He is still waking every two hours to nurse. He nurses EVERY two hours. Today I am having his go three hours, I want to work up to four since I read that babies his age and weight should be able to go that long. And hopefully this will help him sleep longer periods of time. I am going to ask the doctor about giving him rice cereal when he is 5 months. I am VERY tempted to start now if it will help him sleep better.. any suggestions anyone?
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